Nothing else but gratitude

Here I am! Officially bidding good byes to exams and assignments (well sadly to the times when I can have lunches with coursemates and all the chit chats!). Nevertheless it was a long ride and surely it's time to move forward!

Thank you Lord, thank you family, thank you boyfie, thank you best friends good friends friends!

Ahh. This feeling lasted for quite long, indescribable :)

One step at a time.

Indescribable feelings are sipping in my mind at every tick of the clock. Especially right now. I found it hard to focus on my train of thoughts because of several commitments piling up to be done at almost the same time.  Mum was right! Even though I have planned what to do the next day, I felt unorganized. Perhaps I should avoid distractions or whatsoever, list out all the things at one time? It seems so difficult though, even if I declare myself as a regular planner! But I believe God is there to handle in every situation :)

Staying up at midnight feels superbly extraordinary for me and it is definitely not in my biological clock range of time haha. It has certainly been some time since I've stay up so late, as well as NOT using alarm clock to wake up tomorrow! :) I just want to pamper myself for tomorrow, no alarm clock (it's not even difficult to wake up!) for just tomorrow! Ahhh that feeling feels very awesome :).

Dear Haem, please pass me please pass! I just want a pass, not a HD or any better marks.

Talking crap is done for now :P

Almost there? :(

Awww man.

You DISLIKE that sense of insecurity, especially during the final stage.
Wonder if you'll pass gracefully for your final Haem exam.
You kept questioning yourself all freaking day long but without solution.
And you knew it was useless and depressing!

It's like running a final lap race and when you are almost reaching the finish line, you trip over. Just like you tripped your clumsyself over AGAIN that day. Then what, you will get scars again, this time it is deeper, clearly visible showing to other people that you are weak. Worst thing is you cannot hide and pretend nothing has happened. You need something to cure that deformed piece of skin. Did you say curing heart scars?

Geez, that insecurity from an aftermath of exam. That demon.

Dear faith, cast that demon away please. You have nothing else but faith, faith to God.

You know you're busy writing selection criteria, preparing oral defense, preparing documents for AIMS and visa, browsing cars, surfing internet regarding jobs, looking at that diminishing bank account day by day and the money is from parents, searching high and low for long list of steps to be taken in the future, etc etc etc and you're about to become double triple quadruple personalities for doing all things at the same time and you don't know which comes 1st because they all are equally important!!

Dear faith to God, grant wisdom and guidance please.

You love me. I love you. I love God.

Looking at the mirror, we both love God and there's nothing impossible for Him.

So all the grunts and sorrows? No la. Not there lah. Will gone de lah. ><