Things have been completely normal these days. On and off emos. Still struggling to get through my past with my own strength so I always have to remind myself to gain the Lord's strength. I wouldn't deny that I still feel uncomfortable when it comes to my past relationship, but I am trying my very best to move on by praying.
Speaking of praying, I have been persistent in praying for a better job! :) Apparently it happened a week ago whereby the boss from next door department (Biochemistry lab) came and asked if I'm interested in working for them with a 1-year contract, as a scientist! Deep in my heart I was thrilled and amazed by God's answer to my prayer! Having to work in Biochem lab isn't easy, especially in a government sector. My major in uni wasn't Biochem but instead it was Haem and Microbiology. So there is no reason that they would have accept my to work as a scientist, not even a level lower as a technical assistant but as a scientist which my dreams would have come true!
I have applied numerous scientists and tech assistants jobs throughout last year. The reason which motivates me to keep applying for jobs is because I want a better change. My current work environment which is a specimen reception area gives me a limited space for me to grow in my career pathway. The feeling wasn't terrific when I'm working as a lab assistant (and it does feels like I'm working as a cashier) to assist scientists by transferring samples instead of interpreting results to doctors etc. I have been verbally bullied; broke down a few times due to stress from colleagues. Having to graduate from a degree and my current job that requires only a diploma level contradicts each other so much, so much that I'm asking God why am I there.
Indeed He has blessed me financially because all this while, it has been a reliably stable job. I have enough to spare and to save. To hear others' experience working in private labs aren't great either. I heard negative feedbacks from private labs e.g. lower pay, worse environment etc. The pay for a scientist in private labs is even lower than working as a lab assistant for government. So, all in all, I am really blessed to be working in hospital all this time.
Anyways, am still waiting for the confirmation email about my start date. I'm so excited! I hope this will be true, I hope rumours will stop spreading and I want to tell everyone that I WILL BE working there in a month's time.
To God be the glory, always and forever. <3
Signing off. :)
