If my life is being transformed into a storybook format, I guess it would be a total blank page for these two months.
Let me elaborate that. Ever since I cut short my 6 weeks holidays to 3 weeks coming back to Perth earlier beacuse of being scheduled for a 2 hours training, I thought I'm so gonna start my honours project real soon. Of course, I'm expecting myself to finish this interesting project (I meant it, sincerely interesting as I would've thought) real soon! February has just passed by without starting any real experiments. The lab assistant was literally feeling helpless because the cells weren't growing. In fact, she has 20 years of experience splitting cells.March and up till now was terrible, or I would say MISERABLE. Yes I went to uni, yes I've been in and out for my labs, yet nothing has been progressed. I might looked as if I'm busy but seriously, the babies aren't growing happily. So far I did some simple control experiments, and finally my lab book has a tiny few pages being filled with crappy words.
Having said that, my supervisors David and Brian were really helping me out to sort all these problems. But one heartaching thing to see is, David was pulling his hair too, yes physically! My whole project might changed into another topic. My whole scientific paper might changed into a troubleshooting article, which I'm not so sure am I gonna get through this semester, AGAIN. Seriously, every semester has its own trouble for me.
Really creepy. A lot of times I questioned God why is this happening to me. For sure this stagnant- progressed project is neither I'm not knowledgale nor lack of technical problems. 'Expecting' has been a weary word for me to use. I am tired carrying this burden of fear.
Despite of all troubles, weariness, worriness, and failures, I'll keep holding on unto Him. I believe for the next crucial 3 weeks, something good will appear. He assured me to be faithful and to keep holding on, by His strength.
I BELIVE IN YOU LORD. :) I'll get through this with a smile.
its been a long time since u last update a post tsk tsk... eunice... and that must b a really frustrating heart breaking situation for someone who suddenly decided to write something out to express it all. i understand... i've seen my bro sometimes (well.. most of the time actually..) went home with that face looking "i've had enough of this shit!" when he was doing honours, even tears... but guess what, he got 1st class honours at the end, which he said he made up some of his result to make it looks more sensible tsk tsk.. so... u will work it out eventually, just hav to get through that hardship... think about when it all finish!
ReplyDeleteomg... i wrote so much in a comment! i havent seen u in a while, miss u lots and that y this happens =.=" i m getting old forgive me for too much talking. add oil!
thanks my dear celine :D yeps, miracles do happen :D!
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