Favourite season while still pressing on

Ola! Spring started off with a few chilly weeks and I believe the warmth should be sipping through the window blinds shortly. Reminds me of 'Triumph in the skies 2', especially Europe's magnificent scenery. The series wasn't as mind-blowing as Western ones but hey, why watch something which squeezes the most out from you after a long day at work? *Grins* While watching that, visiting Europe would be one of my dreams to achieve even though it was such a vague thought. 

Anyways, I've been packed with different activities. To list out some, dancing, applying and reapplying for better jobs, driving, mum's visit, bro's settling down and much more. Life is good and fulfilling. Most of all, it is full of blessings. I won't expect it to be a smooth sailing one especially in terms of this continuous job hunting activity. I believe that God will provide only in His timing and His calling. Wherever, whenever, whichever. At least I am trying and not giving up. It's hard sometimes, especially when arguments and backstabbing are part of the culture yet God's promise and teaching never fail to provide this sense of peace in myself.

Absolutely clueless of why am I here LOL maybe it was that sense of guilty of abandoning bloggie for whole few months. Hence decided to mumble and talk crap again ahhaaa..

Alrighty, signing off for now and see what happens in the next few months yeah? 

Give Thanks!

God's love is abundant and always overflowing. He really answers prayers! 

I remember chatting with a brother in Christ and was complaining about how difficult it is to get an answer from Him. And this brother said: 'Well God will definitely answer our prayers! It is either a yes, a no, or a WAIT.' Most of the time we were caught up by the worldly issues, hence the impatience. Ironically, God's planning requires one to be faithful. The signs in between our requests and God's answer are tests of our faithfulness towards the Lord almighty. 

 It isn't easy to obtain jobs, which most people understood and are still experiencing it way long before me. Yet they still think positive! That is why I didn't doubt God's power during this depressing job hunting period. That is why I am glad to start off a career in my related field (without an interview ^^). That is why I can share such testimony to other people. Most importantly, a good first step towards future pathway has been provided by all means from God.

Wishes of being able to graduate in a foreign country and having a job before my graduation ceremony have been fulfilled! Looking forward to life, looking forward to see my beloved family! <3 life is good!

A ride of gratitude.

After ending 2012 with my success for attaining an honours degree, it signifies another new season in my life. But somehow 2013 seemed to be filled with curiosity and endless uncertainties. 

It has been two long months ever since I've started to apply jobs. Had two interviews yet unsuccessful. Frankly, I have started job hunting earlier than other people- visiting relevant hospitals and labs, sending countless resumes to possible employers, applying for lab jobs through websites, and of course, checking emails and sites day by day. It seemed to be a new 'job' for me, very very routine stuffs you see. 

As time goes by, it bypassed my time frame limit for lab jobs search, which was end of 2012. Ever since then I widened my scope of job, literally any job. Unfortunately it is such a not-on-spot timing to even beg for a waitress job at this brand new start of 2013.  I guess I have printed about 35 resumes to be handed in shopping malls, applied for about ?20 laboratory jobs through online. I could have forged myself to apply more possible jobs. I think I have tried my very best.

Looking at my diminishing bank account, I could imagine people living in a day by day basis. Well not to exaggerate, it is not the end of the world (yet) but still, it's definitely out of my own comfort zone. I can no longer be tied in my mum's apron strings or hide under my daddy's wings. It is time for me to shift  instead of staying stagnant. 

Hence, with God's calling, I accepted this temporary job at New Zealand Natural. It sounds 'ok' to scoop some ice cream and make some juices for a temporary living..... well with 8 bucks per hour for a start. (Heck) Indeed 8 dollars. I was grumbling at first yet it is something to celebrate. God must be testing my patience and blessing me with this short term chance. Nevertheless, I can pay my rent and a lil bit of meals at this point. Tomorrow is going to be a new start and I have to say, thank God. 

Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Putting away my ego, I'll accept it. I'll work hard for possible gates open along the way. :)

Nothing else but gratitude

Here I am! Officially bidding good byes to exams and assignments (well sadly to the times when I can have lunches with coursemates and all the chit chats!). Nevertheless it was a long ride and surely it's time to move forward!

Thank you Lord, thank you family, thank you boyfie, thank you best friends good friends friends!

Ahh. This feeling lasted for quite long, indescribable :)

One step at a time.

Indescribable feelings are sipping in my mind at every tick of the clock. Especially right now. I found it hard to focus on my train of thoughts because of several commitments piling up to be done at almost the same time.  Mum was right! Even though I have planned what to do the next day, I felt unorganized. Perhaps I should avoid distractions or whatsoever, list out all the things at one time? It seems so difficult though, even if I declare myself as a regular planner! But I believe God is there to handle in every situation :)

Staying up at midnight feels superbly extraordinary for me and it is definitely not in my biological clock range of time haha. It has certainly been some time since I've stay up so late, as well as NOT using alarm clock to wake up tomorrow! :) I just want to pamper myself for tomorrow, no alarm clock (it's not even difficult to wake up!) for just tomorrow! Ahhh that feeling feels very awesome :).

Dear Haem, please pass me please pass! I just want a pass, not a HD or any better marks.

Talking crap is done for now :P

Almost there? :(

Awww man.

You DISLIKE that sense of insecurity, especially during the final stage.
Wonder if you'll pass gracefully for your final Haem exam.
You kept questioning yourself all freaking day long but without solution.
And you knew it was useless and depressing!

It's like running a final lap race and when you are almost reaching the finish line, you trip over. Just like you tripped your clumsyself over AGAIN that day. Then what, you will get scars again, this time it is deeper, clearly visible showing to other people that you are weak. Worst thing is you cannot hide and pretend nothing has happened. You need something to cure that deformed piece of skin. Did you say curing heart scars?

Geez, that insecurity from an aftermath of exam. That demon.

Dear faith, cast that demon away please. You have nothing else but faith, faith to God.

You know you're busy writing selection criteria, preparing oral defense, preparing documents for AIMS and visa, browsing cars, surfing internet regarding jobs, looking at that diminishing bank account day by day and the money is from parents, searching high and low for long list of steps to be taken in the future, etc etc etc and you're about to become double triple quadruple personalities for doing all things at the same time and you don't know which comes 1st because they all are equally important!!

Dear faith to God, grant wisdom and guidance please.

You love me. I love you. I love God.

Looking at the mirror, we both love God and there's nothing impossible for Him.

So all the grunts and sorrows? No la. Not there lah. Will gone de lah. ><

Life of a twenty-two year old

Generally speaking, being twenty two for me is even more exciting than the main stream 'twenty one' :).

As I reflect upon what have I done so far this year, I would say it's kind of a big leap in different perspective of my life. I see uni in a different way - I enjoyed fully rather than 'partially'. I appreciate work on the other hand. I once neglected the importance of friends but now cherish everyone as much as I can. Plus, I encountered a lot of issues which require tremendous amount of decision-making and time management. Things that I feel I'm more independent than my 21- sitting an ielts exam, preparing my pathway to reside in Australia, when and where and what to do after graduate, etc. Guess what? It all comes to the fact that whether I can make it through this semester or not. Mid sems are on the way and I'm trying my very best to strive hard for good results :)!

Something to be thankful to God is that I have so many loving friends and a family and of course a boyfriend :). God is always more than enough (a song that I dance for this year's freshies), also, His grace and love never fail. Sometimes it just takes that lil step to believe and to have faith in Him, He will multiply our needs and divides our sorrows. He is really the author of my life. It wasn't a smooth sailing life story to be written but He's got everything in His hands.

Hehe, you don't need a reason to write crap on your blog. Silly.